Jealousy -anorexic-

I stood in front of the mirror
And had to suppress a sigh
I wasn't as skinny as I wanted to be
It made me want to cry

I had seen her across the room
As tiny as could be
And though I told no one
I secretly wished that was me

So somedays I would starve myself
Or threw up everything I ate
I tried desperately to hide the fact
That I was losing so much weight

But my body began to weaken
And my disease consumed me
I wanted to overcome this
I wanted to be free

Soon my friends realised what was happening
I knew I was in trouble now
They said I needed to get help
I told them I didn't know how

As the days went on I became sicker
I could barely walk anymore
My heartbeat started to weaken
My body was losing the war

By the time I got to the hospital
And the nurse pushed me to my room
The doctors said it was too late
I had sentenced myself to my doom

They told me I had little time left
So as my life drew to an end
I hugged and kissed my family
And said goodbye to all my friends

My funeral was yesterday
My story is sad, its true
I only wanted to look like her
And finally learned what jealousy can do

~CC